Job....wooooo

As long as I pass the background check and drug test, I will have a job at Sears next week.

This is exciting, right?

I mean, I was excited. My friends are excited. Well....my friends in Tennessee are excited.

If you've been following my blog for a long time (like 3 years or so), you know that I've had a hard time finding a place where I feel at home. I don't feel like Huntingdon or Clarksburg is home. Sure, that's where my wonderful family is and I love them. But I don't fit in that "country" culture.

FHU felt like home for a while then I graduated and left. You grow up and mature and college is no longer home.

And last year Henderson became my home. For once I finally felt comfortable where I was in my life. I had friends and responsibilities. And I fit in here. This is where my roots began to grow.

Then comes sweet Jonathan and Ohio.

And now I'm torn again.

I love where I live. But the most important person in my life wants me to be somewhere else. Close to him.

He's not excited about this job. It means I can't make frequent trips to see him. It means I won't be moving anytime soon. And I won't get to see him as often. That hurts me. But I have responsibilities here. I want to live in Tennessee as long as possible because the hard truth is, if he and I get married I WILL be moving to Ohio.

*sigh* Why does all of this have to be bittersweet?

I've said it before and I'll say it again:
I think this is God's way of reminding me that this world is not my home. I'll never be comfortable here.