Musings of a Newly Engaged Woman

I know you guys want to hear the story, but truth be told, there's not much to tell. It was perfect for us, but simple. He asked me to marry him and I said yes. (There was the little detail of an old man in a speedo, but I'll save that for later.)

What I want to tell you now are some of the thoughts that have run through my head in the past 4 days since this shiny ring was put on my finger.

1. "This ring is heavy. I guess that's what real diamonds feel like."

It hasn't been as hard to get used to as I thought. It just seemed like a natural thing. Those of you who know me well wont be surprised that the first thing I said after "Yes" was "How much was it?" Turns out, it was on sale and PERFECT. I was almost more excited about it being on sale than the proposal in general.

2. "Do I have to start getting manicures and going on crash diets now?"

(I decided the answer to that was a big fat NO! I am who I am. I hate manicures. I think one for the engagement pictures and wedding will be nice. And I don't want to be extra cranky from hunger during what may be a stressful time. I'm OK with the size I am now. Obviously Jonathan doesn't mind. If I lose a few pounds, that would be nice, but I'm not trying.)

3. "I don't care"
 
I've been thinking about things like the bridesmaids dresses. And shoes. And hairstyles. And I've come to the conclusion that I don't really care. I mean, I want them to look cute. But I also want them to be comfortable and happy. And I also know that one hair style and dress style and heel type don't suit everyone. I'm ok if they're all different. Compatible, but different.

4. "Why is everyone so excited?"

I guess I've just been expecting this for a while. Maybe I'm just not excitable. And don't get me wrong, I am very INCREDIBLY happy. But I didn't do much screaming and jumping up and down and gushing about the wedding (yet). It seemed like everyone I talked to was way more excited and  willing to talk about wedding details that I was. Maybe I was just in shock. Maybe that was it.

5. "I already know what I want."

Even with all of the questions, I already had most of the answers. Since Jonathan and I decided that we wanted to pursue a lasting relationship, I've been thinking about our wedding (what girl hasn't?). I have my colors, songs, favors, ideas. Not everything...but a good bit of it already thought out. Good thing too, since it's going to be in 5 months.....

6. "I have a LOT to do..."

I do have help. Parents are great, I have a great planner. Jonathan is as cooperative as a man can be. But geez. This is a LOT of decisions to make.

7. "I'm so blessed."

I feel like I've reached the easy part of my life. That may sound bad, but I'm pretty happy about it. I have a loving Godly man. He has a great family. We have great jobs that we love. I have no major problems. My biggest problem is finding enough time in the day to do everything. I have no idea how it ended up this way, but I have no complaints. I hope that this time of planning our life together is as relaxing and stressless as possible. I'm going to work to make it that way. The wedding is one day but the marriage is forever. That's what I'm focused on. A great marriage.

Thank you all for supporting us and congratulating us. I hope you all will be a part of our life together.