Somewhere along life's way, I lost myself.
And while I could write a series of books on that, but I won't. It's depressing. And this blog is about happy. (I know that sentence was grammatically incorrect. I don't care.)
Instead I will tell you that I am newly discovering myself. It's shocking, really. It's like I'm living for the first time. SO I would like to tell you what I uncovered.
If you thought you knew me, this might blow your mind.
1. I have a major obsession with interior design. Colors, furniture, wall accents, fake flowers. I think I would've been satisfied majoring in that in college. I cannot WAIT to have my own space to decorate. (I blame my friend, Kristen for this.:-)
2. I like Christian music. I mean, I listened to Casting Crowns a bit before. But I realized that if I listen to encouraging, positive music all the time, I'm happier. God is on my mind more. It gives me a better quality of life. Ta-da!
3. I want to be a social butterfly. I hate going home and spending the night alone. Thankfully, with all of my lovely friends, activities, and jobs....I hardly ever have to do that. And when I do, I'm usually too exhausted to care.
4. I like having female friends. For some reason, I used to be standoffish to women. I think it might be because I'm sort of a tomboy. I didn't understand how to embrace my feminism. But I have since, and now I'm blessed with many wonderful ladies in my life.
5. I'm not in control. At all. God is. Even though I must repeat that to myself daily, it remains true. Life is better when I just admit it and give it all to Him. Instead of pretending that I think I know what I'm doing. I don't.
6. I need to improve and maintain my spiritual life, through the good and the bad. Because when I do not, things go sour quickly. The key to this is forming good habits. I'm working on that.
7. I don't think I want children. This might come as a shock to almost everyone. I love kids, right? I do. But while I'm a nanny, at least, I don't want to spend 24/7 with children. I don't think I have the patience or emotional whatever. Keep in mind, this could change. Who knows what the future holds. For now though, I am in no hurry.
8. I am passionate, intense, and stubborn. See. I used to think that I was calm and apathetic. Able to go with the flow. Actually, it's quite the opposite. Now, I'm not to the point of being annoying. I'm passionate about things that matter. Not everything. That would be overbearing. But you get the point. I have no problems telling you how I feel about something. I have strong feelings. A bleeding heart. I feel. I care.
9. I'm independent. I knew this before, but now I'm understanding what all that entails. I like to blaze my own path. Try new things. Be creative. I like to give advice, teach, lead. I don't like not being able to do my own things (fixing a light, changing oil in my car, etc). Someone told me recently that I was a leader. I disagreed at the time, but I'm starting to realize what he meant.
10. I can. Sometimes people rely on me. Before, I took that for granted. I figured they asked me to do something out of pity and someone else could do it better. After letting almost everyone down, I realized that's not true. I can teach. I can do crafts. I can do what is asked of me. I can help. And if I don't...my existence is not worth much. I can be useful.
Self-Discovery
Somewhere along life's way, I lost myself.
And while I could write a series of books on that, but I won't. It's depressing. And this blog is about happy. (I know that sentence was grammatically incorrect. I don't care.)
Instead I will tell you that I am newly discovering myself. It's shocking, really. It's like I'm living for the first time. SO I would like to tell you what I uncovered.
If you thought you knew me, this might blow your mind.
1. I have a major obsession with interior design. Colors, furniture, wall accents, fake flowers. I think I would've been satisfied majoring in that in college. I cannot WAIT to have my own space to decorate. (I blame my friend, Kristen for this.:-)
2. I like Christian music. I mean, I listened to Casting Crowns a bit before. But I realized that if I listen to encouraging, positive music all the time, I'm happier. God is on my mind more. It gives me a better quality of life. Ta-da!
3. I want to be a social butterfly. I hate going home and spending the night alone. Thankfully, with all of my lovely friends, activities, and jobs....I hardly ever have to do that. And when I do, I'm usually too exhausted to care.
4. I like having female friends. For some reason, I used to be standoffish to women. I think it might be because I'm sort of a tomboy. I didn't understand how to embrace my feminism. But I have since, and now I'm blessed with many wonderful ladies in my life.
5. I'm not in control. At all. God is. Even though I must repeat that to myself daily, it remains true. Life is better when I just admit it and give it all to Him. Instead of pretending that I think I know what I'm doing. I don't.
6. I need to improve and maintain my spiritual life, through the good and the bad. Because when I do not, things go sour quickly. The key to this is forming good habits. I'm working on that.
7. I don't think I want children. This might come as a shock to almost everyone. I love kids, right? I do. But while I'm a nanny, at least, I don't want to spend 24/7 with children. I don't think I have the patience or emotional whatever. Keep in mind, this could change. Who knows what the future holds. For now though, I am in no hurry.
8. I am passionate, intense, and stubborn. See. I used to think that I was calm and apathetic. Able to go with the flow. Actually, it's quite the opposite. Now, I'm not to the point of being annoying. I'm passionate about things that matter. Not everything. That would be overbearing. But you get the point. I have no problems telling you how I feel about something. I have strong feelings. A bleeding heart. I feel. I care.
9. I'm independent. I knew this before, but now I'm understanding what all that entails. I like to blaze my own path. Try new things. Be creative. I like to give advice, teach, lead. I don't like not being able to do my own things (fixing a light, changing oil in my car, etc). Someone told me recently that I was a leader. I disagreed at the time, but I'm starting to realize what he meant.
10. I can. Sometimes people rely on me. Before, I took that for granted. I figured they asked me to do something out of pity and someone else could do it better. After letting almost everyone down, I realized that's not true. I can teach. I can do crafts. I can do what is asked of me. I can help. And if I don't...my existence is not worth much. I can be useful.
And while I could write a series of books on that, but I won't. It's depressing. And this blog is about happy. (I know that sentence was grammatically incorrect. I don't care.)
Instead I will tell you that I am newly discovering myself. It's shocking, really. It's like I'm living for the first time. SO I would like to tell you what I uncovered.
If you thought you knew me, this might blow your mind.
1. I have a major obsession with interior design. Colors, furniture, wall accents, fake flowers. I think I would've been satisfied majoring in that in college. I cannot WAIT to have my own space to decorate. (I blame my friend, Kristen for this.:-)
2. I like Christian music. I mean, I listened to Casting Crowns a bit before. But I realized that if I listen to encouraging, positive music all the time, I'm happier. God is on my mind more. It gives me a better quality of life. Ta-da!
3. I want to be a social butterfly. I hate going home and spending the night alone. Thankfully, with all of my lovely friends, activities, and jobs....I hardly ever have to do that. And when I do, I'm usually too exhausted to care.
4. I like having female friends. For some reason, I used to be standoffish to women. I think it might be because I'm sort of a tomboy. I didn't understand how to embrace my feminism. But I have since, and now I'm blessed with many wonderful ladies in my life.
5. I'm not in control. At all. God is. Even though I must repeat that to myself daily, it remains true. Life is better when I just admit it and give it all to Him. Instead of pretending that I think I know what I'm doing. I don't.
6. I need to improve and maintain my spiritual life, through the good and the bad. Because when I do not, things go sour quickly. The key to this is forming good habits. I'm working on that.
7. I don't think I want children. This might come as a shock to almost everyone. I love kids, right? I do. But while I'm a nanny, at least, I don't want to spend 24/7 with children. I don't think I have the patience or emotional whatever. Keep in mind, this could change. Who knows what the future holds. For now though, I am in no hurry.
8. I am passionate, intense, and stubborn. See. I used to think that I was calm and apathetic. Able to go with the flow. Actually, it's quite the opposite. Now, I'm not to the point of being annoying. I'm passionate about things that matter. Not everything. That would be overbearing. But you get the point. I have no problems telling you how I feel about something. I have strong feelings. A bleeding heart. I feel. I care.
9. I'm independent. I knew this before, but now I'm understanding what all that entails. I like to blaze my own path. Try new things. Be creative. I like to give advice, teach, lead. I don't like not being able to do my own things (fixing a light, changing oil in my car, etc). Someone told me recently that I was a leader. I disagreed at the time, but I'm starting to realize what he meant.
10. I can. Sometimes people rely on me. Before, I took that for granted. I figured they asked me to do something out of pity and someone else could do it better. After letting almost everyone down, I realized that's not true. I can teach. I can do crafts. I can do what is asked of me. I can help. And if I don't...my existence is not worth much. I can be useful.
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Fake flowers??? Never thought I'd see the day!! ;)
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April 5, 2011 at 12:05 PM
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Fake flowers??? Never thought I'd see the day!! ;)
Good list. =)
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